Bon, si je passe le cap des 3 jours sur ce blog, c'est que je tiens le bon bout ! lol ! le bon bout de quoi je ne sais pas trop...mais je le tiens !
Hier...nouvelle choré. Aujourd'hui...nouvelle choré aussi ! Wow ! je ne m'arrête plus ! trop d'inspiration tue l'inspiration ! ahahah ! mon esprit est alerte, pas forcément serein, mais en tout cas, suffisament transcendé pour guider mes pas.
je pense avoir enfin passé le cap du " je veux être un artiste reconnu, je veux faire des scènes mondiales...blablabla". D'ailleurs, je me demande pourquoi je n'ai pas ouvert les yeux plus tôt. je pense désormais que je dois me sentir heureux :
- de danser,
- d'exprimer quelquechose avec mon corps (alors que certaines personnes sont incapables d'aligner ne serait-ce que 3 mots !!),
- d'éprouver de nouvelles émotions et de nouvelles sensations à travers mes chorés.
C'est vrai que cela serait super génial de pouvoir montrer au monde entier ce dont je suis capable (même si ce n'est pas grand chose). Mais, quand je repense aux Championnats du Monde en 2004, je me dis que cela a été ma plus belle victoire car elle avait un sens personnel, un but d'accomplissement intrinsèque, et non pas une recherche d'épanouissement narcissique et égocentrique.
Bien sûr que ce que nous faisons (du moins je parle pour mon cas), nous le faisons pour nous enrichir personnellement. Mais, que m'apporterait foncièrement de danser sur des scènes internationales?Ne vaut-il pas mieux se sentir grand par soi-même et au plus profond de soi, plutôt que grand dans les yeux d'un public qui au fond ne voit que l'enveloppe mais jamais le véritable contenu?
gros bisous ! muak !
Hi ! l guess that if l am still writing on this blog after 3 days...it means that l will stand and hold on it !
Yesterday...new choreo. Today...new choreo also ! quite impressive, isn't it ? tToo much inspiration ! lol !my spirit is wide open, not really calm and zen, but at least dynamized enough to lead my steps.
Thus, l think that l have been through all the " l want to be an famous artist, l want to perform on great stages...blablabla...". Indeed, l wonder why (how come) l didn't realized it earlier. L think now l should feel happy to be able :
- to dance,
- to express something or anything with my body ( and my words sometimes) when some people just can not speak out 3 smart words,
- to have new feelings and emotions while performing.
It's true that it would be great to be known worldwide and show what l can do to everyone (even though it's not much). But, when l think of the Worldchampionships in 2004, l can tell it's been my best victory just because of its meaning, trying to accomplish myself and not trying to reach any narcissistic and egocentric blooming.
As a matter of fact, what we do (according to me) is in order to enrich us personally.
But, what would it fundamentally bring me to dance on international stages?
isn't it more worthy to feel great by oneself deep inside yourself, rather than being great in the eyes of the audience who usually just judge the book by its cover?
As an end, l would like to talk about how my best friend Gigi described me in one word ...
IDIOT
ahahah ! l am still laughing about it !
Why? because it's so true and nothing else to do but laughing ! what a great description !
- IDIOT, for can't stop falling in love, LOL ! falling in love is okey, but helllooooooo ??? l am acting like a social worker !
- IDIOT, for not learning anything from my mistakes (in this subject)... double LOL !!
ok, ok...l give up ! lol
muak !!!
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idiot
n.
1. informal: a stupid person
2. medicine: archaic, a mentally handicapped person
- derivatives: idiotic (adj.) idiotically (adv.)
- origin ME: via OFr. from L. idiota 'ignorant person', from Gk idiZtUs 'layman, ignorant person', from idios 'own'
idiot
n.
1. A foolish or stupid person.
2. A person of profound mental retardation having a mental age below three years and generally being unable to learn connected speech or guard against common dangers. The term belongs to a classification system no longer in use and is now considered offensive.
idiot
noun
One deficient in judgment and good sense: ass, fool, imbecile, jackass, mooncalf, moron, nincompoop, ninny, nitwit, simple, simpleton, softhead, tomfool. Informal dope, gander, goose. Slang cretin, ding-dong, dip, goof, jerk, nerd, schmo, schmuck, turkey.
idiot
A cynical view of the world by Ambrose Bierce
n.
A member of a large and powerful tribe whose influence in human affairs has always been dominant and controlling. The Idiot's activity is not confined to any special field of thought or action, but "pervades and regulates the whole." He has the last word in everything; his decision is unappealable. He sets the fashions and opinion of taste, dictates the limitations of speech and circumscribes conduct with a dead-line.
Idiot is a word derived from the Greek ἰδιώτης, idiōtēs ("person lacking professional skill," "a private citizen," "individual"), from ἴδιος, idios ("private," "one's own").[1] In Latin the word idiota ("ordinary person, layman") preceded the Late Latin meaning "uneducated or ignorant person."[2] Its modern meaning and form dates back to Middle English around the year 1300, from the Old French idiote ("uneducated or ignorant person"). The related word idiocy dates to 1487 and may have been analogously modeled on the words prophet[3] and prophecy.[4][5] The word has cognates in many other languages.
History
"Idiot" was originally created to refer to "layman, person lacking professional skill", "person so mentally deficient as to be incapable of ordinary reasoning".[6][7] Declining to take part in public life, such as democratic government of the polis (city state), such as the Athenian democracy, was considered dishonorable. "Idiots" were seen as having bad judgment in public and political matters. Over time, the term "idiot" shifted away from its original connotation of selfishness and came to refer to individuals with overall bad judgment–individuals who are "stupid". In modern English usage, the terms "idiot" and "idiocy" describe an extreme folly or stupidity, its symptoms (foolish or stupid utterance or deed). In psychology, it is a historical term for the state or condition now called profound mental retardation.[8]
Disability
In 19th and early 20th century medicine and psychology, an "idiot" was a person with a very severe mental retardation or a very low IQ level, as a sufferer of cretinism, defining idiots as people whose IQ were below 20 (with a standard deviation of 16);
In current medical classification, these people are now said to have profound mental retardation, and the word "idiot" is no longer used as a scientific term.
In literature
A few authors have used "idiot" characters in novels, plays and poetry. Often these characters are used to highlight or indicate something else (allegory). Examples of such usage are William Faulkner's The Sound and the Fury and William Wordsworth's The Idiot Boy. Idiot characters in literature are often confused with or subsumed within mad or lunatic characters. The most common imbrication between these two categories of mental impairment occurs in the polemic surrounding Edmund from William Shakespeare's King Lear. In Fyodor Dostoevsky's novel The Idiot, the idiocy of the main character, Prince Lev Nikolaievich Myshkin, is attributed more to his honesty, trustfulness, kindness, and humility, than to a lack of intellectual ability. Nietzsche claimed, in his The Antichrist, that Jesus was an idiot. This resulted from his description of Jesus as having an aversion toward the material world.[18]
In the novel Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier, the character of Ben, a man who inhabits Rebecca de Winter's former beach cottage, is referred to as an idiot, because of his childlike behavior, confusion and anti-social behavior.
i give up ... i'm not gonna try hard ... even though what i feel is still the same ...
I CAN'T MAKE YOU LOVE ME
(as performed by George Michael)
Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me
'Cause I can't make you love me If you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't
I'll close my eyes and then I won't see
The love you do not feel, when you're holding me
Morning will come, and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then, to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
And I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
And here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no, you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't
Ain't no use in you trying
It's no good for me baby without love
All my tears, all these years, everything I believed in
Baby
Oh yeah
Someone's gonna love me
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